I hate myself sometimes. I never think about consequences. And consequences always seem to catch up and bite me. I hate the way I am and the things that make me happy... nobody wants me to have. It's sad and depressive. And there's about to be an explosion of emotions in my house. I want to go far away and change everything about myself. But I can't run. I've run all my life and this time, I really can't run. I will take no more of this shit. I do way too much to be treated like this.
I love my boyfriend. Sometimes I can't imagine being with anybody else. Sometimes I sit in the car with friends and just think how happy I am to be his girlfriend. The girl he picked above all others. And sometimes, I think girly things like the colors for our weddings and such. It's amazing how love can make you so....unbelievably happy. "You are the jelly to my fish", babey.
I can't stop eating sunflower seeds. But they tend to make my lips dry. I'm pretty happy right now, can't wait till Valentines day. I hope somebody reads this one day. My life, as of three years ago....is quite different. In a good way. =)
As you can tell, my journal is now FRIENDS ONLY..Mostly because I write stuff in here about what I think, how I feel and other stupid pointless shit like that so I just don't want the whole world to see it. So if you want to be friends, then comment and if you don't, then just don't..</p>
EVERYONE: Comment to this entry! Say whatever, comment more then once...comment more then 10 times! DO IT...PLEASE?!? Let us see if we can get to 1000!!! Be random, be creative, have FUN :D
1000 Comment GAME: Comment here or be lame!
(That means my LJ-Stalkers but non-commenters too..this time you MUST comment not just read..you know who you are)
So I decided that this is not a friends cut because pratically no one commented except for a few special people..so anyways..it'll remain a public entry but will not be posted at the top of my page as it is interfering with the "friends" posts..
Please leave a comment about how you TRULY feel about me, but please post anonymously so you're not scared to say what you feel. I don't care if you hate me or say something mean, just say what you really think about me.
yeah..i really wanna know how people feel about me. the type of things that they wouldnt say to my face. please tell me the truth. ♥